Right Now I AM Nothing

Are you happy with what you've done?
You got inside my head and made me
think that finally things would be different.
Then when i trusted you
you broke me.
i told you that i couldnt handle another break.
and you broke me anyway.
now you act like nothing has happened.
i resent you.
i resent ever meeting you,
ever trusting you,
ever caring.
i resent the fact that i STILL
care about you....through all the hurt
you caused me,
i still care.
that is my flaw,
and that is what is causing me pain now.
you got inside my head and
knowingly broke my soul
and when i confronted you
you made me believe again that
it was okay....I am naive...
it was my fault for beleieving you.
but deep down i know it wasnt my fault,
but or now i blame myself...i think.
i dont know...
i dont know what i think
and i hate not knowing...
i hate this...i hate you, but
i dont.
i cannot stop caring
even though you purposely
hurt me.